SankatA

Its early evening when I wander into the misty place. The narrow gullies lie just behind the epic New Road. Its the gullies of TehBahal. I'm walking a path I used to walk when I was a little kid. I know its just my imagination, but the place has a nostalgic smell. Even the shopkeeper at the sweets shop looked familiar, probably just another imagination. The gullies twist and turn revealing new shops and new faces. Food stalls along the road and people around it seems chatty and joyous. They all put a smile on my face. This is a part of new Kathmandu.

Finally I reach a big courtyard. The temple stands invincible in the same place as the last century. The atmosphere is enchanting. The street lamps around the place emit the tantalizing chrome light which diffuse in the air and let the whole area glow golden reminding me of its magnificence. Everything about the place is mesmerizing, specially when my mind has been worn out after a long week. The vendors running around trying to sell the flowers or the worship wicks, devout people visiting the temple or the stray dogs scratching their ears and sniffing around; they all move in a predictable and sort of animated way. It is all so amusing.

How long had it been? Five years? Yes, five years since I had last been to this place. Never religiously though. But the place always made me bow, I was and am awed.

Still I believe, God is dead.

Why China sucks ass...

Now that I'm out of China where no servers are watching me, and where no chinky cops can get to me; here's what I have to say:

Don't get me wrong my chinky friends. I've had good times with you all and I love you all. BUT, there is something seriously wrong with the place you've been in for all your life and the place where I've been for the last four years. And you all are just dreamers who don't have a clue about what's going on in your so called Motherland. What you see is what you know, and what you know is nothing. The world is full of life, and you all are finding bliss in the government's force-fed ignorance. Woah! What a bummer. Yeah, shit happens; and it has been happening in China from before you were born.

What you learn in school is what you know. OR it is what the government wants you to know. The isolation of more than five decades and the brain washing of citizens during and after that period has left all of you in a state where you enjoy the absence of knowledge. Believe me, because the whole world agrees with me when I say "You all were fucked up!". You all have been patriotic, that is admirable. BUT in vain. You are loyal to the country that is blinding you. You are under a controlled environment and you don't know that yet because you haven't ever been in open air yet. You don't know what FREEDOM is. You don't have anything to complain about because you don't know what you're missing.

What happened in Paris was inevitable. The Olympics should have been boycotted, I did my part. But instead of trying to know why the Olympic torch was obstructed and why Beijing Olympics '08 was protested, you all did something which truly astonished me. You all started coming online with "♥ China" in your display names. Why? Because the government didn't let you know that the protest was actually for the injustice in Tibet. Rather, you all thought that the French were jealous of China? LMFAO! But I am not going to laugh because I consider all of you mentally impaired. You can't even get your facts right because the government doesn't allow you to. All the information sources are blocked or censored by the government. You all are happy to watch the stupid kungfu shows on the TV. Isn't it time to wake up yet?

Yes, China's getting better in every other way. I love the place, I love the people. I hate the government. But, its just crazy to watch a person live an ant's life. Yes, life is fun for you but it is not life you have. You all are missing the quintessential element of existence. Just because a room is enough for you doesn't mean that you don't have the right to peek outside. Beware - I'm not writing this because I'm a capitalist (I am not). I'm trying to enlighten you. To all those who understand what I'm saying - Try to know the world and know what your government has done to you. To all those who don't understand or don't want to understand - Fuck You!

FREE TIBET!!

Becoming Us...

The road reminds me, it misses us
The house used to see, but no more
It's easy, very easy to remember
The jellies, candies and chocolate bars.

Homes always built, lands still the same
Yes, we have grown up so much now
Its easy, very easy to remember
How we've lost all the innocence.

I can't get my mind off of it
It's eating the soul of the kid
It is a romance designed to be sad
It's a virtue of life, to become.

Hide the truth, it will make us normal
Hush your conscience, it will make us acceptable
Burn the polaroids that follow our wake
We can all be happy, our life is done.

crazy week

Derive and Integrate

The two important functional operations in calculus. These mathematical phenomenons exist in the very same way in real life. Its the philosophy of lifestyles in every part of the world. And its sad especially in the way it creates a difference among us, among the same species of beings. The rich and the poor, the hungry and the possessed. Could there be rich without the poor? Rich exist only after obtaining the the poor one's money. This process goes on, integrating itself for the rich folks whereas for the poor, its the process of derivation. A big city with sky scrapers in the center still has slums below. The scraper keeps building higher and the slums keep getting bigger. Its a natural process now. Nothing awkward about it anymore. And this is the way we live, the way we watch the world getting stabbed by the devil. This is the way we lead our own future to a certain oblivion. Are we all happy? Yes, we're still happy. We're exhilarated! No shame if you try, try to enjoy it.

Tornado of Souls....

Look Through Everything

poweR

Here, we go on.... We see things, we pass them. We learn and we ignore. We create and then we destroy it. We have a power. It is possessed by everyone and is used too. Some use it in a good way, some use it negatively. But, who is to judge the either? Not me! I stare carefree. I enjoy watching. The spectacle is always amusing. With every breath, you can heal yourself; or you can also kill yourself slowly. With every thought you can enlighten yourself, or you can waste everyone's time. This power is a hard thing to understand; even if understood, a hard thing to control. Few have realized it, and fewer have mastered it.

If I could, would you?

Escape

Look at the world today,
It is full of so much hate,
Oh! Please take me away.
I see my country,
Stripped and torn away,
Pain and blood everywhere.

Some said left,
Some said right,
Others went missing in their fights.
Some shed dark,
Some shed bright while,
Dark's getting darker and brights have all the rights.

Oh please blind me,
I don't wanna see anymore,
This pain is sickening my soul.
Can't you hear the cries?
All the children are crying,
Its like a sad song thats awakening me.

Please give me wings,
So I can fly away,
I don't wanna live here anymore,
Please let me escape.


-Mushroom Cult-