elusive end...

I'm tired. Not for the day! Not from studies! I'm so tired. It's such a sick world. I'm tired of watching, tired of thinking. I'm tired of trying to decide. Choices and reasons mingle with my pityful mind, desolating all my actions. Vision blurred, sounds muffled, decisions diverted and shame washed away. I need a sense higher than reason. I don't need faith. I need clarity. I need help! Yes, I'm tired. Legs thrown and head under the blanket. Naked sleep, thats also what I need. I want the end. But, I know its never coming. It's such a sick world. Life's such a bitch.... SKAG.. I want my skag back. It helps me forget, my purpose and my troubles. And maybe, maybe it'll show me the end...